Life has been very full lately. 

Very. Very. Full.

How about you?

Things keep happening, one after the other, in such quick succession. Of course a lot of this has to do with the monumental force that is running a new, rather large, business (yes, I am still glad we did it : ) But other life things have been happening too – some I want to show up for and others not so much – it doesn’t really matter, because although I’ve been living through them all, it doesn’t feel like I’ve really been there for any of it. Do you know what I mean?

I suppose the bright side is that years of meditation practice has me feeling pretty present in the individual moments when they come. But it doesn’t feel like I’m digesting anything. More like I’ve been eating food without absorbing the nutrients, or eating a bunch but then not getting rid of the things I should : ) There is no time! There is no room! There is this thing, then that thing, then the next thing, and the next, the next, the next….

Just this past week, my oldest dearest friend whom I have known since I was 6 flew in to visit me for the weekend. As I sat at the airport waiting for her to arrive (Manchester, thank god) I really truly almost burst into tears. There was the overwhelm of having a friend, after all these years, who would go through the trouble of coming to see me for just two days. There was the stress of how the heck am I going to fit in showing her a nice time. There was excitement of course. But sitting there on the bench, bubbling up to the surface, there was mostly deep exhaustion. My body suddenly felt like it hadn’t stopped moving in months. I think it was shocked to just be waiting, not doing. 

All that was followed by a wave of physical sadness for all the moments – so many – that were just flying by unprocessed, unattended to, unabsorbed, unlived….when will I have a chance to – ah! There is my beautiful friend walking towards me….next!

It didn’t used to be this way. I know, because for most of my adult life I have felt the very opposite. I am aware what a luxury that sounds like, but a commitment to yoga for over twenty years will do that to you. Yes, life is always busy, but I had learned how to create more space and rhythm within it. Time to process, learn, and let go. I love that rhythm! I want to – I will – get back to it.

It’s one of the reasons I am still so deeply dedicated to practicing and teaching yoga. It is a regular reminder – to my body – of what rhythm and balance feels like. Even if it’s just for an hour at a time. Yes, practicing and teaching are technically yet another thing on an already very full plate, but I know in my bones they are the fire that keeps my engine going. And even though maybe my mind hasn’t, I sense my body is processing some of these life things in its own way during those very precious moments on the mat.

Still reading? It’s been a while since I wrote anything more than a schedule update (maybe you’ve noticed : ) I miss writing a lot! And even though things continue to be “full”, it also feels really nice to share a bit more again.  Another reminder : )

Ok – on to business. My teaching schedule has changed perhaps since I last wrote? You can find those updates here.

I will be away from classes June 23rd- 28th – not this upcoming week as I hilariously told my class yesterday – I’ll be teaching yoga as part of my meditation teacher’s retreat at the Omega Institute in Rhinebeck, NY – there are some spaces left if you feel spontaneous and would like to join!

I think that is officially all for now. As always, hope this finds you well, and sending love – see you soon : )